*Please take the time to read this, it would mean so much to me*

Alright, this has been eating away my life for the past 8 years. I dont know when it started, but all i know is that it has to end. This is the first time i have embraced this issue, its my first attempt to make this life-ruining sickness go away. Please, no negative comments unless there absolutely necessary. Im sick of living the way I have been but I dont know what to do. I consider myself a social retard. When I get in an area with many people, I just freak. I sweat, I get jittery, I freeze and I just dont know what to say. Ive been told that I come off as a snob when Im just to shy and scared to talk to people. Ive never really had friends, I do have some, but the simple relationships I have have taken many more years to form then they should have taken. I just dont know what to do. When Im one-on-one with somebody, im fine.
Im good with flirting with girls, just not getting the balls to go up to them infront of people, I just cant do social situations, no matter who it involves. I just, I cant handle this. My own family is starting to notice and I just dont know what to think or do. Theres nothing I can do about it, when im in a social situation, I just freeze up and sweat. My cousin is having a wedding soon, and im already dreading it, not cause i mind sitting by myself, being scared to talk to people… but because of the crap i know im gonna take from ppl for being a snob. Every second that im out of my house, i just got tired, sweaty, and jittery. I cant handle this. Ive been ignoring this issue for the past 8 years, dealing with the pain by just drowning in self-pitty. If anyone knows how this can be fixed, please, tell me.
srj? WTF DUDE? no, im not gay.. Ive had 4 girlfriends, all of which i did sexual things with, and i enjoyed all of it…. If u read the whole thing, ude know that im good with flirting with girls, and im alright with talking to be ppl if its just me and another person… Im talking about big, social situations.




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