i’m on my second leave of absence in the past year….I’ve worked maybe 3 months in the past year. The disablity payments from work will only last so long and I’m not sure if I can go back to work at all after that….everytime I think about it…I get sick (nausea, vomiting, pounding heart, and crying). I know that my employers think that I’m lying which of course makes it worse and I think actually led me wind up going on sick leave the second time. I’m frustrated because I am used to taking care of myself and my kids, but now I feel helpless. All this worrying is not good for me and I know it, but as we all know money makes the world go round and without it we’re lost. I feel like I’m turning into a recluse and that’s very scary, especially since I have kids…the youngest of which, has no relationship with her father…so of course he’s no help at all. I have suffered from anxiety my entire life, but it’s gotten progressively worse over the past 10 years.
I’m not looking for a hand-out…I’m looking for help. If I can’t out of bed to go to work…what am I supposed to do. Perhaps you think suicide would be a better option…wouldn’t want to be a problem for you or society.
Of course I’ve tried doctors and medication…eventually they stop working and when they do work it’s not perfect, otherwise I would be at work.
Your very ignorant to think I want a hand out…I’d rather be working…making a real check like I always have in the past. Yeah I’m real happy since I can’t work…ooo hoo free time to sit at home and be miserable, with no one who understands. I sit at home every day…I’m not out partying, meeting with friends or having any fun at all….I’m sick, not lazy. People always invite me out, but they don’t get it….my anxiety has me like a prisoner in my own body. I wonder when it will end or just be as bad it was before…at least I could still function.
You can judge me if you like, but I just wanted some help
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